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breakingmyheart) wrote2013-02-04 04:42 pm
breakingmyheart) wrote2013-02-04 04:42 pm
2.11 - Text
[Private to Megamind]
I've spoken to K.
I understand why you told him and I don't blame you or resent that you did it. I also know that if I had been affected and you hadn't, you still would have told him, and I wouldn't have blamed you for that either. It was the right decision.
I won't waste my breath (as it were) on trying to insist that anything I said was untrue or hyperbole. If anything I understated the case. The Overlook was a tipping point, I suppose, but all it did was exacerbate problems that were already there. That's all the Barge has ever done for me. The floods, the breaches, ports like the Overlook - they're like having your face forced up against a mirror, and they're not constructive experiences if you don't like what you see.
I wish you were in a position where I would actually need to tell you that.
My presence in your life cannot make yours better. The reverse may not be true, but that's neither here nor there. Pursuing a relationship with you was selfish and thoughtless, and if I can't improve things then I at least have a responsibility to not make them worse.
I can understand that you won't want to see me. I'll rearrange your engine room shifts.
This is not your fault.
[Private to Duo]
Would it be possible for you to supervise Megamind's work in the engine room?
It's important that he be able to continue, but for personal reasons I'm no longer an appropriate supervisor for him.
I've spoken to K.
I understand why you told him and I don't blame you or resent that you did it. I also know that if I had been affected and you hadn't, you still would have told him, and I wouldn't have blamed you for that either. It was the right decision.
I won't waste my breath (as it were) on trying to insist that anything I said was untrue or hyperbole. If anything I understated the case. The Overlook was a tipping point, I suppose, but all it did was exacerbate problems that were already there. That's all the Barge has ever done for me. The floods, the breaches, ports like the Overlook - they're like having your face forced up against a mirror, and they're not constructive experiences if you don't like what you see.
I wish you were in a position where I would actually need to tell you that.
My presence in your life cannot make yours better. The reverse may not be true, but that's neither here nor there. Pursuing a relationship with you was selfish and thoughtless, and if I can't improve things then I at least have a responsibility to not make them worse.
I can understand that you won't want to see me. I'll rearrange your engine room shifts.
This is not your fault.
[Private to Duo]
Would it be possible for you to supervise Megamind's work in the engine room?
It's important that he be able to continue, but for personal reasons I'm no longer an appropriate supervisor for him.
no subject
I know a lot if things, okay. I know I'm not really good with people and that I'm not as smart in a lot if ways as others might be. And I know you're-- important to me.
Very... Important.
I just--
Why won't you let me help you?
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I'm managing.
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That is not handling it. Also, you've lost weight abd your health is deteriorating and I should have figured this out long before now!
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Sometimes I wish II'm sorry I'm not an open book to you, Megamind.
I don't need to be judged for my behaviour. Pleae can you just let this go?
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You're not okay. You're dumping me for my own good? Fine, whatever. But let someone help you. You don't need the suffer alone like some sainted martyr.
You did a bad thing, okay? I know. I have a whole list to my name. But if I can work to graduate I know you can get help too, and beat this! I know because you're stronger than me!
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I have problems. I always have. But I'm not suffering, I'm not martyring myself, and I don't have to beat anything. I'm just living my life. Sometimes it's difficult. And I'll deal with those difficulties on my own because I have always dealt with them on my own.
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[ bitch, please ]
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All of which is irrelevant because I don't have to justify myself to you.
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Or will it be easier to put Gamma back in the box and detached scientist with the alien? Pretend you're not lying through your teeth? Yes, dammit, you need to justify yourself! You're a warden for one thing, and you've been sleeping with me for months for another! Generally honesty and consideration is part of the deal!
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