[ Nathan rubs a hand over his mouth; he's never had the occasion to explain this to someone not from Haven before. The Troubles aren't going to mean anything to Tosh. ]

It's not just pain. I don't feel anything. I used to think - used to want to think - it was somethin' medical, but--

It's not. I dunno if it's ever gonna go away, but ...it's got its perks, right?

[ A small quirk of his mouth, something that maybe used to be bitter and has softened. ]

Back home you'd call me Troubled.