I don't want you to-- be happy for--warden inmate reasons.
I want you to be happy because-- [ because all the obvious fucking reasons; he loves her, she deserves it, she should have everything she wants an then some ]-- because, okay, I got a million reasons.
So can we-- take this a day at a time? I have [ Edward, Chris, a family he's cobbled together on the barge, and he's relatively happy here, and he remembers saying once that when you're content and happy on the barge this means something is wrong, because the barge should never, ever be better than the home you want to go back to. ] a lot going on but I still...
I still want to make time for you, be-- here with you.
[ Maybe not as lovers; oh God, he needs to sit down with Edward and his bundle of insecurities and hash things out. But friends, boon companions, something. ]
If that doesn't read as a completely selfish, jerk thing to do. It might. I don't even know anymore. Every time I think I understand human relationships I-- [ screw it up; he swallows that, changes it to a less self-blaming ] finding out there's so much more to learn.
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I-- I have an idea.
I don't want you to-- be happy for--warden inmate reasons.
I want you to be happy because-- [ because all the obvious fucking reasons; he loves her, she deserves it, she should have everything she wants an then some ]-- because, okay, I got a million reasons.
So can we-- take this a day at a time? I have [ Edward, Chris, a family he's cobbled together on the barge, and he's relatively happy here, and he remembers saying once that when you're content and happy on the barge this means something is wrong, because the barge should never, ever be better than the home you want to go back to. ] a lot going on but I still...
I still want to make time for you, be-- here with you.
[ Maybe not as lovers; oh God, he needs to sit down with Edward and his bundle of insecurities and hash things out. But friends, boon companions, something. ]
If that doesn't read as a completely selfish, jerk thing to do. It might. I don't even know anymore. Every time I think I understand human relationships I-- [ screw it up; he swallows that, changes it to a less self-blaming ] finding out there's so much more to learn.