[ The problem with having the inability to forget is that it takes a very long while for things to lose their emotional impact. To think back, and be in that moment again. ]
We did-- say there was more, didn't we?
[ He put it aside, though. For a time. Boxed it up and buried it in the furthermost corners and soaked up Edward's affection, Chris's joy, and centered himself around those as he could. And for days, its worked. It's what's keeping him balanced now, thinking about days and nights. ]
I'm still not real sure how to -- say things, honestly. I -- admit, I let myself focus on happy things on port as I could, and been riding pretty high on that.
[ He pinches the bridge of his nose, considering. He thinks about Edward and Tosh and how much giving they both need. ]
All I really want is for you to find what make you happy, Toshiko. To find it and run with i and get the hell off this boat. Because I'm pretty sure that you're better than this place and everybody on it. You just-- need to remember it, and I have no idea what you can do to do that.
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Date: 2013-08-01 10:04 pm (UTC)We did-- say there was more, didn't we?
[ He put it aside, though. For a time. Boxed it up and buried it in the furthermost corners and soaked up Edward's affection, Chris's joy, and centered himself around those as he could. And for days, its worked. It's what's keeping him balanced now, thinking about days and nights. ]
I'm still not real sure how to -- say things, honestly. I -- admit, I let myself focus on happy things on port as I could, and been riding pretty high on that.
[ He pinches the bridge of his nose, considering. He thinks about Edward and Tosh and how much giving they both need. ]
All I really want is for you to find what make you happy, Toshiko. To find it and run with i and get the hell off this boat. Because I'm pretty sure that you're better than this place and everybody on it. You just-- need to remember it, and I have no idea what you can do to do that.
I just--
I want you to be happy, Tosh.
That's all.